Whatever is on my mind at that moment or something deep (LOL) I have been thinking about, it's all fair game with me!

Thursday, October 22, 2009

UPDATE!!

This one is for my Aunt Carrie whom I miss like CRAZY!!

Nikki and I got new hair cuts last weekend. Of course she wanted it short 'like a boy' so I let her get it short, I however went even shorter and spent the rest of the day telling Nikki 'I don't look like a boy, girls can have short hair too!'

We both love our new cuts.

Also seems that Nikki's other front bottom tooth is due to fall out any day now! She is excited because she knows the tooth fairy will be leaving her something again!



Nikki's New Look

My new look











Love you bunches Aunt Carrie!!

Now off to work and all the other things my day has in store for me.............

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Missing you

Every now and I then I get in a mood where I go down memory lane, sometimes it's a good thing and I smile as I think back but other times it makes me sad, specially when it come to Mom. Next April it will be 14 years since she passed away and I think that this time might be a little harder because that was how old I was when she left this earth.

It seems through the years that my memories of her have fadded, I don't know if it's my mind not letting me think about it or just the fact that it's been so long. I do still remember certain things that I think will never go away. Simple little things like her smile and laugh.

At the same time though I am angry with her. This is what always hurts the most. I don't want to feel this way but I look back and remember all the wonderful things she did for her friends and family and I think that last year she was gone so much and me being a teen we fought so much and we never got to have that closeness that I fell we should have had.

I miss her like crazy and I say I will never be like that with Nikki, that I will always be there for her like Mom wasn't at times. I know she was doing her best and was working so I could have things hell a lot of the times I was working with her but it hurt that she was not always there for me and most nights I didn't even get to see her at all.

I am glad she touched the lives of those she did. She was an amazing woman and if I become eve half of that it will be a great accomplishment. I hope she is at least a little proud of me as she watches from heaven and I hope that she understands now the secrets I kept from her and when I see her again she will take me into her arms and tell me she missed me too.

Miss you Mom, keep a close eye on Nikki cause she deffinatly has your spirit!